Getting back into fitness

sound like me I am also a personal trainer and fitness instructor..taught lots of exercise classes and helped many reach their goals

Welcome aboard, Amber. I'm sure you'll find this site motivating. So many of us have, and have being seeing fantastic results too! Armed with the knowledge you have, you should not feel ashamed. You should see it as an advantage - you're likely to get a few questions from the FC community on the expertise that you have. We all have our own battles. Over here everyone supports one another. I suspect you'll be feeling a lot better about yourself soon! :)