Sense To Someone Make Not Me

Oh god, I am such a pig! Why do I do this? It's so fucking stupid. i NEED to lose weight before i go back to college. I need to. I can't face everyone there while i'm this horribly fat. And i know this, but i still just eat and eat and eat, and i eat such junk, and i do no exercise. I hate myself so much for it, but i don't change.

But this time i will. Tomorrow I will not eat mountains of junk. Back to living within limits, not that I've ever really done tha

Okay, I absolutely suck at exercise. It doesn't help that I hide any I do from mum, otherwise she does her whole "I hope you're not waging war on your body" thing. When did a bit of exercise become war?

Still, I can't blame her. There's plenty of time to exercise while she's asleep, plus anything I could do in my room. 

The truth is, I'm just lazy. Being on this site helps, but the workouts I do are ridiculously short and burn up

So... Going to college today on no sleep, probably a bad idea. Especially as one girl told me I'd put on weight. It's true, so it's hardly mean of her to mention it, but it wasn't what I needed to hear. Nearly had a bloody panic attack right in the middle of class when she said it.

On the plus side, I ate even less than I planned to today, so that's awesome. I love the feeling of knowing you are losing weight just by existing, burning up all those calori

If anyone gets the title, yes, it is a Garbage reference.

Anyway, I don't think it 2.0 anymore, probably gone past that now.

Food's been a problem with me for ages. It fucks with my head and I never seem to be able to eat normally. Pretty much, I can't decide if I hate food, or if I like it too much. That sums it all up. The last couple of months I've been binge eating really badly, and I'm sick of it. Time to get back in control. I already feel be