I feel traped in this body! The time for change has come.
Thursday, January 21, 2010 at 7:42 PM filed under Diet & Nutrition postings
Here I go.
The time for change has come.
For so many years, I think about 8 years or so, I have been trapped in this body.
Some where around 40 my metabolisms or something changed. I put on about 40 lbs.
I can't belive I let this happen. I feel so bad about myself.
I wake every day thinking today will be the day I start losing weight.
Then the day unfolds, life is hectic and my energy dwindles, I get hungry, I eat too much.
Lots of the times I fell stressed, lonely, sad, or board, and so I eat too munch.
I tell myself, tomorrow will be the day I start losing weight.
It is a vicious cycle.
I read every thing I see about weight loss.
I have spent thousands & thousands of dollars on weight loss programs.
I've tried everything, anything, that I thought might work. So far I have been a failure.
I think the problem may be that I'm always trying to keep everyone in my family happy, especially my husband.
Usually I fall short. I feel like a failure in so many ways.
There was a line in a 70's song that comes to mind, "Can't please everyone so you have to please yourself".
For for the past 20 years. I have had long blond boring hair.
Many times I have wanted to change it and my husband would get upset with me.
So I would just pull it up in a pony tail and
go on with life.
Today I cut off my long hair.
It looks GREAT! Even my husband thinks so.
Could It be that this is my time to make a change, my time to succeed? I hope so.
I am ready to pay some attention to me.
I am ready to love myself enough to do whatever it takes.
Here I go.
