Cutting my calories down to less than 1200 calories a day has been very hard.
I have no idea how many calories I was consuming before I started my diet. It had to be a lot though, considering I gained about 30 pounds since June. I was so proud of myself for losing that weight. I worked very hard to lose that weight.
I was at the lowest weight I have been in my adult life. It is so hard to know that I have to lose those same thirty pounds again before I even start losing more. I get very discouraged by this fact.
I’m going to do it, I need to do it. My ten year high school reunion is this year and I would really like to be close to my goal weight by then. Or at least lower than what I was last year when I was losing weight.
I can’t even imagine what I would look like if I were thin. My whole life I have been overweight. I have never seen a thin Michelle, and I would like to.
I’m done having kids, and now that my daughter weaned I can focus on myself, and that includes cutting my calories to a range that I can lose weight with since I no longer have to keep my calories up to feed her my milk. Also I do at least an hour of exercise a day on the Wii fit.
Overcoming a food addiction is very hard. There was times where I would just eat something just to try to feel full. I would inhale my food because I convinced myself that I was that hungry. I hardly ever feel the satisfaction of feeling full which is one of my biggest problems. I am constantly hungry. I could eat 5000 calories a day easily.
So of course by cutting calories I am still hungry all the time. I just need to learn to avoid the food and find something else to void my time. I’m very happy I have the Wii now because it weighs me in every day and forces me to know what my choices I made the day before have done. Also, it is really fun, so it is more like playing than working out, which I like.
Keeping a food journal has helped a lot because it makes me take responsibility and I can’t pretend that I didn’t eat this or that, but I ate every single one of those calories.
So here is to losing weight, and keeping it off!
