end of day two
Tuesday, February 16, 2010 at 10:44 PM filed under Diet & Nutrition postings
Today was really difficult!! I didn't have much to eat at the house so i ran to subway got the veggie delite, baked lays and diet coke... then for dinner i guess i just blew it all.. it's hard keeping a 1200-1300cal diet.. not sure if that's right for me? oh well, my mother got my grocery list taken care of for me so tomorrow should be an easier day to plan and keep track. Also i think i should be eating a bigger meal during lunch.. b/c the past two days i ate a lot at the end of the day... and tonight yes i did do REALLY BAD and i had cupcakes.. it was out of emotion and hormonal issues.. i carve chocolate during my cycle and i was literally shaking to have it.. i indulged and i feel better.. satisified..and i was just wondering does anyone else agree that sometimes you should just give in? b/c if you let it build up for too long you might really really over indulge..and i know i can go on a several day binge if i don't just have a little chocolate here and there... not that hostess is a little chocolate but damn i'm a big hormonal girl!! i was gonna punch someone in the face for my fix.. but now at least i'm set for the rest of the week...? I'm still keeping up with my personal journal to help with my emotions and my issues of why i don't deserve to be thin sexy and beautiful like i've always wanted to be. It has really been helping me recognize the difference between my need for food and my want for food. Anyway, i think i'm going to get better and i'm pretty encourage still although i busted my nutrient and calories today..and i did take a picture of myself today b/c i did feel kinda pretty but you can see how my face is swollen and puffy from being on my steroids medication..ugh I promise myself that by this summer, damn it, i'm gonna look and feel 10times better than i do now!! I won't fail, can't fail! no excuses.
