Here I go AGAIN LOL

To anyone that might read this, I'll start by saying HI.  My name is Kimberlea, and I've been on & off diets since I was 16.  I am a true yo-yo dieter.  I've never been at my goal weight, but I have lost enough weight to feel pretty good about my health & appearance.  I have approximately 30 weight loss program books, along with about 15 DVD & video fitness programs.  I save articles from magazines on weight loss & fitness & actually have them organized in binders.  I have one binder full of pages of success stories from other people, hoping that one day I could be a success story in my own personal book of life.  At this point, I'm 35 & at my highest weight ever, 245 lbs.   I refuse to watch the scale tip over 250, although I wish I had felt this conviction when it started tippin over 200 back in my 20s.   I can no longer use the reasoning that I look pretty good for having 5 children.  Especially when my youngest is almost 7.  I've steadily crept up the scale with each child & battling depression has never been a help.  I usually trade problems I've noticed.  If I'm having a tough time with my depression, I seem to lose weight & stay more focused on losing weight (probably because some of the depression is linked to my clothes "shrinking").  Of course when I'm happy & not battling my depression, I seem to have no willpower & just eat whatever I want.  It's a vicious cycle that has definitely gone on for TOO long.  My 20th high school reunion is in 2 years & it will coincide with my oldest daughter graduating from the same high school.  I have 2 very important milestones that I'd like to be anticipating having my picture taken for.   I do know, that no matter which weight loss program a person chooses, the main component is almost always caloric intake.  Trying to stay focused on how many calories I'm getting, and working in as much physical activity as possible, is ,& always will be, my best bet for weight loss.  I have no crazy aspiration to be a size 0 or 2.  My goal size is a 10, no matter what weight I happen to be, and of course if I'm healthy & active & happy with how I look, that is by far my main goal.  Here's hoping I'm starting on my weight loss journey for the last time, and to whoever is reading this, I hope it's yours too.  Have a safe trip along the way, and may the journey be just as inspiring and wonderful as the destination when reached. 
Kimberlea (SCsongbird)