Day 19...and still here!
Saturday, April 24, 2010 at 9:00 PM filed under General postings
Well, today was a slow day. Kind of mucky outside, so I sat in front of the computer for most of the day. Way to burn calories right? That's ok, I am under my calorie goal, and while I didn't accomplish all my workout today, I didn't skip it either.
Yesterday went so great with my exercise, but I had a tough time with calories. My ex-husband used to get on to me all the time, and it was one of the few things I will give him credit for being right about, I either don't eat, or I gorge, but mostly I don't eat.
My original weight gain came mostly from medicines, but about a third of it came from my back and forth eating. I can go a whole day and not eat, then maybe the next I'll eat 700-900 calories, then I eat 3000! It's ridiculous really, and a very bad habit. Of course now that I am counting my calories, the first thing I did was go over pretty regularly. Yesterday was the first day that I struggled to get to 1000. I hope that doesn't happen too often, because I know it is just as bad as over-eating. And it seems, with me, a lot easier to do. Today was much better. Not a struggle in either direction.
Well, tomorrow I think I will weigh and measure in. I am so close to getting below 180 I can taste it...it taste like carrots and radishes, zucchini and celery! That's fine though I like those foods. Of course I like them wrapped up in creamy caesar dressing! My mom and I were emailing and talking about my progress...she is a great cheerleader...and I was thinking about my skinny jeans. Yes, I still have all my skinny clothes, and I can't wait to wear them again. I hung my skinny jeans on my wall in my bedroom months ago thinking it would be something to look at and say that's where I am heading. For the longest time it was rather depressing because every time I turned around I gained another 5 pounds. But now, I get kind of excited. I measured them the other day to see how much I have to drop off my hips, it is a frightening number, but I can still see it.
I know that they say that you have to have short term goals to succeed. And I do, they're daily. Each day I want to meet my diet and workout goals. But I have a hard time with short term weight goals. I tried them for a while, now it's just get below 180 sometime soon (I guess in a week considering where I am, 180.6) But trying to say on such and such a date I will lose such and such amount just doesn't seem to work for me. Call me a weirdo, why not I am weird about everything else so it only makes sense to be weird about this too. What I do know is that just making my daily goals and seeing a downward trend on my weight in general seems to be cutting it for now. And it is just nice to have something that does indeed cut it!
