Day One
Tuesday, August 17, 2010 at 9:49 AM filed under Weight Loss postings
My First Real Blog.
Yesterday I was told that I have my Dad's genes... meaning supper high cholesterol... so high that they could not even calculate it... not the end of the world today for a 35 year old, fat guy, but could be if I don't do something now... That's right now... not soon... but NOW!
I'm sitting here eating a bowl of yogurt and bran buds, which I have been eating for breakfast, for that last few weeks. One has a feeling this news is coming. (LOL, kind of)
I've spent most of my life as a bigger man, I don't smoke, do drugs, Drink much... I eat! food is my crack! , chicken wings mostly... they get me every time! like an Alcoholic and his first taste of beer again...
Years ago I lost almost 60 lbs, got down to 240... but I hated the way I felt in my skin, I guess it had more to the reason why i lost it, messy divorce, finacial troubles, no familly around, just angry so I started to run and run... then when I could not run any more, I ran some more!... so I ened up getting hurt, and use that as an excuse to stop working out and dieting where I guess looking back, I could have found a happy mediume.
Now I'm 290+ again, I know some people are way bigger then I am, That 300 lbs is not that much, and they would have never guessed that I was that big... and many tell me not to worry about my size that I carry it well. Which is a nice way to say "your good looking for a fat guy!" or so I'd like to think.
The Truth, I'm worried... nothing has been motivating me lately... even with the news, and am feeling like who cares. But my body is screaming for a change, One that has happened before and has come and gone. I worry about my family, now my kids could end up with this to, not to mention my bad eating habits... All this stress make me want to eat more crap foods... so i worry that is just another part of the vicious cycle... gain weight lose weigh....gain weight... die! ( i know sounds dramatic... it kind of has been for me)
I'm not one to let stuff get me down.... So I will try and be positive with this life change needed. I am going to use this site. I'm going to make every thing public. I'm going to not hide, and I'm going to make the change. For me, for my family, for life....
Wish me luck... I'm going to need it...
Shoei!
