Well here I go again...
These past 3 years have been the hardest for me, after graduating from high school I only seem to be getting bigger and bigger. I am currently at my heaviest and not so very proud...In fact, I look at myself and I feel hate. As if I am dissapointed, how did I let myself go so easily I say to myself. And so today I am choosing to change...
I've struggled with my weight since middle school, I've been called miss piggy and other mean names and was never seen as the pretty girl due to my weight (when it came to boys) but I was strong enough to ingnore it all. The summer before 9th grade (high school) my body was going threw some changes and easily lost a ton of weight, which got me to my skinnist (ever) i was 130lbs. I was no longer called "Gorda" by my family (which means: fat girl. but it said in a loving way) anyways, long stroy short...through the years in H.S i seemed to just keep gainning weight and I was always on some kind of diet with my mom. By 11th grade I was 180lbs, but honestly it didnt bother me...luckly I carried my weight very well (until now) most of my weight would go to my thighs..butt and hips. My belly was always flat. By end of 12th grade I was 190lbs and now currently in my junior year of college I weigh 218lbs! (weighed myself today) I see it in my face and my belly now and seem to be losing the curves I love so much.
So now after sharing the small details of this struggle, today is my final wake up call!
I cant let myself go anymore...my goal weight is 160lbs which still doesnt leave me in my ideal BMI but I know I will be happy.
Thank you for those who have took the time to read this. I know Im not anyone famous and I know there are people who suffer much more with their weight. But I am like alot of people out there in this world who need that extra push to keep going and who have tried everything else. *Here's hoping that this communiy motivates me* I plan on bloging my journey as much as I can.
Thanks again
Just your average girl.