The Program

Tomorrow I "graduate" from the diet of hope program.... I'm so scared of beginning the rest of the journey without weekly supervision. There are so many people who I have invited to view my progress on this journey that I'm afraid to let them down. I know that I'm supposed to be doing this for me but I'm so scared of failing because I've done it so many times in the past. My preoccupation with food has become so overwhelming that I don't have cravings anymore. I'm just afraid to eat at all now. What if I trade one extreme (overeating) for another (not eating at all)? I'm trying to even out the food with an exercise program of cardio, weights and low impact swimming. I'm also afraid to make goals but I know without them that it will be easy to back slide.