Looking for the Finish line

I was doing so great with the insanity workout program and then it started feeling like a chore and eventually I stopped doing it. I tried so hard and I got no where with it, yes exercise is great and I noticed a difference in how I felt but that's not enough I need results to go with it...if I'm putting that amount of effort then results is a must to keep me going.

I just feel a little down on myself, I don't know how to stop doing what I'm doing and start losing some weight...I don't even know what I'm doing that is making me stay the same...it must be what I'm eating or not eating, it's getting to the point where I just don't want to eat, for the past 2 months I've hardly skipped any meals but seriously I feel so badly about myself that I just want to go back to my old ways and never eat cause that was how I lost TONS of weight when I was in high school and I know that's not healthy but why can't i weigh that 110 pounds that i used to?

Well this isn't helping either is it? Sure venting out my frustration makes me feel a little better but it's not getting me anywhere. Sorry for the depressing blog for any of those who actually read this.

~§heena~