I CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!

I feel good today. However, i kind of slipped after lunch and had more of a snack then I should have had. I know that i can do this. I know that I have been saying that for a while now but I really do want to do it. I think I might have more motivation to do it now. Kenny and I are going to get remarried in March and I want a real wedding this time and I want to look absolutely amazing. I have never in my life been skinny and I want to know what I will look like skinny and I want to be healthy for my son. I want to know what it feels like to not always think that everyone is looking at me thinking I am fat. I want to be able to look in the mirror and know that I have done it, done the one thing in my life that I have tried so hard to do. I want to think that i look good for a change. I want to feel good. I want to think that people are looking at me cause I look good not looking at me to judge me or think that I am fat. I want to love me.