Day 33
Friday, September 23, 2011 at 12:08 PM filed under Weight Loss postings
I went up a pound. I didnt put it on my weigh in cause if i do that i will be discouraged and quit. I want to think that it is cause muscle weighs more then fat. thats just a dream tho. I know that i havent been doing very well with my eating or exercising. I hate to exercise in front of people and i have been gone in the day time and everyone is home in the night time and there is no room in that tiny bedroom to do what i need. and mom cooks what ever she wants even tho she is trying to lose weight too but she dosent always cook the healthiest of food. And with me being down and depressed i want to do nothing but eat everything i can get my hands on. The past couple of days i have been working my ass off to get back on track but its so hard when I am still trying to get the rest of my life on track. if i get this job on wednesday it will be one giant step to getting where we need to be. luckily i can work out in front of kenny with no problem. he actually flatters me when i do it. i sometimes feel bad cause when B sees me on the floor trying to work out he wants to play and i hate telling him that i cant play right now. and winter is coming up so we wont be able to go outside and play that much. hopefully more then last year cause he is more mobile. well, im gonna go make some luch. missed out of breakfast unfortunately.
