It's Friday, 22 June and 3 days left till school reopens.
I'm 18, female, and currently 52.8kg. That may not sound heavy, but I am horribly short, like 150m and I look fat, basically.
I've just cut my hair and I was reminded yet again of how horribly round my face is..plus i've acne so just ): And that led to remembering how I hated looking into mirrors, hated having my photo taken and hated meeting up with old friends because of how utterly ROUND I am now. I don't think I'm ugly, honestly, it's hard to be 'ugly', but I was a lot prettier years ago, and it pains me when relatives bring up how pretty I used to be and stuff like that, probably assuming my feelings don't get hurt but helllll no they get hurt..and yet I find it nearly impossible to maintain a healthy diet/ i.e not binging every second I can..what. is. wrong. with. my. lack. of. selfcontrol..
The weird thing is that, I am very much into sports, I play netball, I kayak, I rockclimb, I'm the fittest girl in class and I've naturally developed muscles of sorts but despite having toned calves and arms, my lovehandle is thoroughly lovely and my face is an O. That needs to be changed really. It doesn't help that I'm really short so I look tubby. Like a short fat cylindrical marshmallow. I don't do all those sports as much now since my exams are coming up but I hope to incorporate more exercise into my everyday schedule. I don't hate working out, so that's definitely a plus.
So by journal-ing every day or every other day, I hope to hold accountable to myself and to remember that this is a lifestyle change and not a diet because diets and I don't mingle, at all.
The plan. They sound simple enough but I'm sure there will be a change if I keep this up.
1. Drink lots of water. I don't drink enough water at all.
2. If I were to drink non-water/non-fruitjuice liquids, I'll drink them in a smaller glass.
3. I will go to school slightly earlier everyday and spend at least a half hour doing cardio.
4. I will stop ~walking out~ to buy snacks as and when I want to. I need to save money anyway.
5. I will stop doing stupid things like googling 'how to lose 5kg in a week'. YOU STOP THAT. That's not going to work for you!
Please keep this journal up babe, it's going to be a much smoother ride for you if you do!
