getting back to me

I am starting this journay again this yr. I started in2013 off and on in 2014 lost 20lbs gained 11 of it back. I was doing it for all the wrong reasons.  I wanted to wear a bikini on our first family trip to the ocean, i wanted to loose weight to to have better choices in clothes I did it to to say look at me I did it and you didn't now I have come to realize I must be happy on the inside because no matter what that scale says or what size of clothes I'm in I would still not of been happy.  I went to the ocean with my family LOVED it no I did'nt wear a bikini  it didn't matter what I had on I was with my family enjoing our time together. Yes I still want to loose weight but I want to do it for healthy reasons like keeping my blood pressure in check, keep away diabetes, live a healthy life to be around along time for my kids I want to stay active to beable to beactive with my kids. I'm not doing it to say look at me My main goal is to stay active and enjoy whAT i DO I have a bad knee and back and I'm not going to try and do exercises I did in my 20's to lose weight. I am going to be happy with what ever happens as long as I know I tried and did some exercises everyday I am going to be happy and quit worry about my weight because of what someone else might think