Completely Overreacted
Wednesday, March 17, 2010 at 3:08 PM filed under General postings
This morning I had an appointment for my annual exam (it's been a few years, so I'm definitely due) and I arrived on time and everything was fine. It hurt more than it usually does but she told me that was normal. She finished up told me everything looked fine and went on her way. When I got up to get dressed, I noticed that I was bleeding. Not just a couple spots, but actually bleeding. I freaked. I started sobbing and couldn't find anyone, felt like a moron when I finally did find a nurse, but I've never bled like that after an exam. It completely through off my day. I was supposed to go straight to work after, but went home instead to continue sobbing and ended up sleeping for 2 1/2 hours. I felt so miserable, still do. I feel like I've gone back 2 years in my treatment for BiPolar II which is discouraging because I had been doing really well. I had a couple glasses of wine last night and started a new medication so I wonder if had something to do with either of those. I guess I just have to keep an eye on it if it's the medication because I don't want to be crazy again. And lover boy will just have to accept that I don't like drinking any more (I used to, to the point of having a drinking problem) but now I never get happy buzzed, just ill, and I feel crappy the next day. Not to mention the unnecessary calories. Grr, I hope the rest of my afternoon feels better than this morning did.