I will succeed this time!

So I have finished a week. I lost about 5 pounds! Yay! I never realized how easy it would be to log everything I eat... it is really helping me keep on track. It is forcing me to be honest with myself. I know no one else is reading this, it's mostly just for me. So if I lie about something, I am only lying to myself. I'm too good to lie to myself. I am being forced to think about what I eat before I cram it in my mouth, because I know that I am just going to have to account for it later. Take yesterday for example; I went out to eat with my husband, brother and sister. We went to a sandwich place that I know has HUGE servings, and I overindulged. When I got home, I was tempted to "adjust" the entries I made to keep my calories under control on paper. But I realized the whole purpose of logging food intake is to learn to control my intake on my own. I don't always realize how much I am eating, and how much fat and calories my food contains. By keeping an accurate track of exactly what I eat, I can really see exactly what I am doing to my body and my health. By accurately entering my ridiculous lunch, I was able to see where I could cut back for the rest of the day to stay inside my limits. I learned that I can occasionally indulge on a treat and still stay healthy, still lose weight. I don't have to cover up or hide from what I eat. I am able to own what I do. This all takes power away from the food and gives it back to me, puts it back where it belongs. I AM in charge of my body and my health. I AM in charge of my emotions. I AM in charge of my actions and reactions. Food, fat, bad days, those things don't hold power over me. I am relishing this feeling of being in charge!